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(no subject) [Sep. 10th, 2006|01:28 pm]
[Current Location |Fortress of Solitude]
[mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[music |Sunday, Bloody Sunday - U2 (god knows why...)]

You scored as Special Ops. Special ops. You're sneaky, tactful, and a loner. You prefer to do your jobs alone, working where you don't come into contact with people. But everyonce in a while you hit it big and are noticed and given fame. Your given the more sensitive problems. You get things done, and do what has to be done.



Special Ops








Support Gunner


Combat Infantry






Which soldier type are you?
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(no subject) [May. 15th, 2006|11:11 pm]
"Life is what happens when you're making other plans" - John Lennon

Yeah. Those other plans... damn it. just when i think things are going smoothly for everyone, out comes another neck-breaking twist and this is one of the bigger ones. It's not a simple situation, it'sa full out Trial By Fire. What will happen? who knows. neither of us do. How long will it take? same answer. All i know for sure is this is becoming a strange and wondrous time in my life, one of those ones that turn into legends.

i know how i feel. i know how she feels. i guess what bothers me is that... i don't fully understand what's happening,and being that life is a search for truth, i guess i'll keep searching. i think mom is starting to suspect something, she gave me a sour look as i left tonight... either that or she thinks i'm out of my skull, using up gasoline and money i techincally can't afford.

God, i need you to be wiht me, to watch over us, and keep us safe. i trust that what is happening is happening for a reason, and when the time is right, you'll let me know, if i haven';t figured iit out by then. In jesus' name i pray...


~Fire on Ice
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on a steel horse i ride... [Apr. 25th, 2006|10:40 pm]
good lord. school's ending again, but this year i'm i much better shape. maybe no physically, but my self-opinion is rising. i'm fittn to break some habits, fittn to relax, and let things come naturally. gonna start lifting weights, bulking up, doing my work... all that crap i should have done in high school. now, for the real feat. tomorrow i'm going to go to school. but it won't be any normal wednesday. i'll get up early, take a shower, brush my teeth, floss, shave, put on my deodorant, put some gum in my pocket, down two cigarettes on the way to school, chew the gum, spray some cologne, walk right up to and attempt tp calmly ask her if shed like to hang out sometime. she will then look at me and do one of two things.

1) she will be startled and surprised, and not take me seriously. she will giggle, which will build into a laugh, and i'll have to act like i'm laughing too. it will hurt, but hey, that's what life is about.

2)she will get all quiet and thoughtful, and proceed to tell me how she doesn't see me that way, but i'm a really cool person, and totally awesome and stuff, and etc... it will hurt more than the first one, i think. either way, i'll go back to the car, down a couple more cigarettes as i beat myself up inside for not being Kent, and proceed to get angry for no real reason.

all in all, it should be an eventful day. but god, how i hope neither of those things happen... i'm ready to have a change of luck. i mean, i've felt good about being me for a few weeks again. i'm not ready to let that go. i can't wait for the 5th, it oughta be awesome. especially if mom lets me stay the night instead of having to come back home. i'll get the "you're 20 years old and can do what you want" which is a major guilt trip, and if i go and stay there, i'll be a villain forever. if i don't stay, i'll just collect my things and come home, and be a REAL villain. why can't i justy have everyone else's life?

oh well, may the road rise to meet your feet and the sun shine on your back all your days.

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(no subject) [Mar. 22nd, 2006|02:21 am]
[mood |crazycrazy]
[music |Free Bird, motherfuckers!]

so i finally watched the rock and roll hall of fame induction this year. i never have before, but i couldn't help myself. Metallica inducted Black Sabbath. Sabbath isn't one of my favorites, i think that ozzy's an overrated singer, and most of his hype is just that, hype. sure, war pigs and iron man are cool, but what else have you got? yes, tony iommi is the human riff machine, and geezer is pretty damn good with a bass. anyways, i watched just to see what metallica would be like. Good god, i hadn't seen them actually perform since i saw the concert in 2004, almost 2 years to the date. they're still the greatest fuckin' band in history. However, they were in my eyes, completely overshadowed by a little band from Florida, perhaps you've heard of them, LYNYRD FUCKIN' SKYNYRD! Kid Rock came outand did his little spiel, then skynyrd freakin' took it home. they played their two onbligatory songs, sweet home, and Free Bird. Man. i haven't jammed like that in ages. Hell, i haven't listened to skynyrd in ages. they're the second album i ever bought, alongside alice cooper. good god, i stood in my living room at midnight playing the riffs, pathetically trying to keep up with the solos, and you know what, it didn't matter because i had an absolute fuckin' blast. yes, i'm a total loser, yes, i can't play for shit, and yes, i was headbanging through the whole thing.

God bless skynyrd, and metallica, and to a lesser degree sabbath.

and another question, say there's a girl you might be interested in trying to get to kow better, how would you go about doing that? you have to tell me because i'm dense and anti social because while other guys were out chasing girls, i was behind a chess board and a lockout buzzer system answering questions...
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Thank You [Mar. 3rd, 2006|11:33 pm]
[mood |happyfor the first time in a while]
[music |Duh... Read the post and find out]

Thank You - Ray Boltz

I dreamed I went to heaven
and You were there with me
We walked upon the streets of gold
Beside the crystal sea.

We heard the angels singing
Then someone called your name.
You turned and saw this young man
And he was smiling as he came.

And he said, "Friend you may not know me now"
And then he said, "But wait"
You used to teach my Sunday School
When I was only eight.

And every week you would say a prayer
Before the class would start.
And one day when you said that prayer
I asked Jesus in my heart."

Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am so glad you gave.

Then another man stood before you
And said, "Remember the time
A missionary came to your church
And his pictures made you cry.

You didn't have much money
But you gave it anyway.
Jesus took the gift you gave
And that's why I am here today."

Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am so glad you gave.

One by one they came
Far as the eye could see
Each life somehow touched
By your generosity.

Little things that you had done
Sacrifices made.
Unnoticed on the earth
In heaven now proclaimed.

And I know up in heaven
You're not supposed to cry.
But I am almost sure
There were tears in your eyes.

As Jesus took your hand
And you stood before the Lord.
He said, "My child look around you.
Great is your reward."

Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am so glad you gave.

Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am so glad you gave.

My favorite church song ever. i heard it on the radio last night, well, this morning. gave me that feeling, like when you could almost cry.

Remember that we may be but shadows and dust, but what we do in life echoes through eternity.
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monthly update [Mar. 1st, 2006|12:07 am]
[mood |calmcalm]
[music |Bubba Sparxxx feat. Ying Yang Twins - Ms. New Booty]

It's been a while since i updated in a meaningful way. So i'll give you a rundown.

I'm still a cashier at VG's. I make more money in an hour than i'm really worth, but i'mnot getting nearly as many hours as i used to get in the heyday of the deli period (eg. 18 instead of 30). Things at VG's are fine, and in some cases more thna fine. I learned how to run the servce desk, so i'm not always stuck out on register all night anymore. i sell money orders, lotto, run consumers bills, send faxes, etc...

I think i've caught the eye of a girl in the store. not an employee, because they're all taken, or too annoying to put up with. There's a couple, though, who'd probably turn me down just because. oh well. This girl just shops there, and i've caught her staring at me a couple of times. admittedly, i stare at her, too. Who knows where it'll go, probably into the genesee county jail. no other prospects, though. kinda sad.

As far as school, we toured the Regent communications building last week. they run 5 different radio stations, Banana 101.5, Club 93.7, Cars 108, US 103.1, and 1270 AM, which i forgot the call letters for. I'm thinking of interning at one of the stations this summer, as an extraside money making opportunity, plus, if i really want to get into radio, it's the place to be.

Television class, i've moved past head writer and talent status, and Chapel has asked me if i'd like to direct our next project. Of course, i said yes. I can see all of my broadcast ideas coming together in my head, and given the chance to direct is a dream come true. I'll of course have my tried and true dream news team, Mike, Amari, and Art. i might draft one or two more, but really, i oughta keep it simple.

Art on the computer is a fuck of a lot more fun that i thought it would be. Our first assignment was to create a log/trademark for ourselves, and mine came out fairly awesome. it's a broken chalk outline of a flying V guitar, in a pool of blood with my bootprints leading away. When i get around to it, i'll post the final version on Devart so you all can ooh and ahh over it.

I took up smoking over christmas break. Black and Milds at first, but they don't last too long, and you get more for your money with cigarettes. First i got Marlboro Mild Menthol 72's, but they're too short. Then i got Salem Black Label 100's. they're longer, but i go through them just as fast. real cigars though, are terrible. but they'll suffice in a tight situation.

I'm getting back into chess again. For the last time, hopefully i'll stay into it. I need some sort of creative outlet for my whatever it is. I call it enraged apathy. Some people have incorrectly called it "emo", but i don't cry, i do'nt cut myself, and i don't listen to the fuckin' Cure. No chicago this year, instead, a year of training. i'll surface at the Michigan Open, hopefully to the tune of a positive score. Money would be nice, but is doubtful. As i get better, so does the competition.

I'm running the entire Big Nine Quizbowl league this year. The old man calls me the "Czar". It means that I do'nt have to read, I don't follow any one team. I oversee, I manage, I rule. It's a good feeling, and I hope "my" team wins out. I'd love to have to take a few days off to ferry our boys to state.

Man, i still love sin city. Marv is such an undeniable badass it's not even funny. He's the kind of man i would love to be. He looks like me. Or at least my vision of me. Oh damn, these women are hot. The kind who'd only hook up with me if they lost a bet. just like every other woman. Dwight, is cold blooded. Me on one of my better days. The Rourke brothers are just mean, manipuative sons of bitches. Hartigan? The one good cop ina dirty city. All in all, a motley crew of role models.

Can't think of a whole lot else, so that must be all of it. Hopefully i'll see the people who readthis oon enough.

One love, Peace out.
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i knew i was the fuckin' pirate king! [Jan. 29th, 2006|06:01 pm]
You scored as Captain Jack Sparrow. Roguish,quick-witted, and incredibly lucky, Jack Sparrow is a pirate who sometimes ends up being a hero, against his better judgement. Captain Jack looks out for #1, but he can be counted on (usually) to do the right thing. He has an incredibly persuasive tongue, a mind that borders on genius or insanity, and an incredible talent for getting into trouble and getting out of it. Maybe its brains, maybe its genius, or maybe its just plain luck. Or maybe a mixture of all three.


Captain Jack Sparrow


James Bond, Agent 007


Indiana Jones


Batman, the Dark Knight




Neo, the "One"


The Amazing Spider-Man


The Terminator


Lara Croft


William Wallace


El Zorro


Which Action Hero Would You Be? v. 2.0
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(no subject) [Jan. 13th, 2006|10:18 pm]
[mood |blankblank]
[music |Run to the Hills - Iron Maiden]

it's been awhile, but no one's made an comments about it. i just assume no one reads this anymore. oh well.

1. Name:
2. Date of birth:
3. Where you live:
4. What makes you happy:
5. Currently listening/the last thing you listened to:
6. Do you read my journal?:
7. If yes, what makes it especially good or bad?:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/do you have a crush at the moment?:
10. Favourite place to spend time:
11. Favourite lyric:
12. The best time of the year:

1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A band, a song, or album:

1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Look at my friends-list and tell what you like about one of our mutual friends:
4. Put this in your journal so that I can tell you what I like about you.
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Happy Festivus / End of year recap [Dec. 24th, 2005|10:49 pm]
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |Big and Rich - Jalapeno]

happy festivus, everybody. hope everything is going as planned for all of you. to those who've been by me, through thick and thin, who haven't let me give up, and who know exactly what to say, I love you all, ever need anything, just ask. To those who have spit on me, kicked me when i'm down, and treated me like shit, watch your backs, because you'll get yors soon enough. the big wheel turns around quickly. Here's to the New Year. May she be a damn sight better than the last one, and may we all be happy and satified by the end of her. lets recap the year, shall we?

1. Got dumped by my first "real" girlfriend

2. Got my best friend back

3.Won 360 dollars in chicago, while having quite-near the time of my life.

4. Went to Cedar Point wiht family, had an awesome time.

5. Met someone who seemed really cool

6. Made one of the best friends i've ever known

7. Promoted at work

8. Took my first step toward manhood

9. Almost drowned in a parking garage

10. Saw a really shitty concert

11. Got dumped by my second real girlfriend

12. Dressed up like alice cooper

13. Discovered a little bit more of who I am, and began to enjoy it

14. Closed out they year having fun with my family, and friends

So, good year, or bad year? i'll let you all decide.

Goodbye, Farewell, and Amen. This is Jason "Floodman" Brownfield signing off.
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update [Dec. 19th, 2005|11:10 am]
haven't posted anything in awhile.
still alive.
bored out of my mind.
kent's 21, go him.
i bowl like shit every week, now.
got a myspace, nugefan99, look for j-dizzle.
gonna try to make a movie on the 27th.
that's all.
merry christmas.
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